clingy

 everything was going well tilll about midnight .. …. now i feel like i did  4 months ago , i feel soo nervous, i feel like i could throw up at any time . my body is shaking . all these emotions are rrunning through me . im having flash back to that friday ….. i cant get his voice at my head … i feel like illl never be good enough for anyone , not my parents not my bf not anyone .. not even sure why i  try any  more i feel like a waste of space time and energy……. seems like everytime i get close to fire i smother it …. fire needs oxegen to breath .. i feel like im not capable of being unclingggy . i blame my parents  . i been  clingy ever since i was a baby, my mom pick me up at every cry and and every tear . i cant blame her she thought her baby was gona die . i had cancer so i was always being held and coddle till foreverrrr . soo i deattached myself from my mom and attached it a boyfriend. but boyfriends are not like mothers they dont have that mother instince … as a ramible on i just wi . sh i could understand why the fuck am i so clingggy. 
ill
i get it you were single for the last 2 years of your life . im alot to handle … maybe too much…. ill always be too much to handle ..=/

maybe ill just run away and never come backkkkk =/