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I havent really put anything in this really but heres a little about what going on. I have a mass on my brain and 4 leasion on my liver. I lost my job , life over all sucks. Im getting depressed over everything . I look in the mirror and i see fat, disappointment and ugly. I been trying to walk and do some work out but i lack the motvation. The job hunt loooks realllly slim and i feel stuck. I wanta go somewhere warm but i have no money. Im waiting to hear back from unemployment but that a waiting game and ahalf. I been trying to deal with my depression the best i can. But all i really want to do is escape my problems. At this point i feel like im never going to get married nor have anykids. Not that really in a rush just seems like everything is in the way of having a good life. All my exs are getting marriedt and have great lives im stuck here i wanta be somewhere exciting and happy. I hope things go better in the next few weeks im not impressed with the way things are going at all. I wish my life was more exciting and i can count down the days till jamica or bahamas or something 🙁