Rolling

I can really tell that I’m going to come to love Tuesday mornings. Since Tuesday and Fridays are still days that I teach yoga, they are only half days in the office for me. There is something really weird though about being a "salaried" employee and not having to "keep track" of hours. I guess since its only my first week, it makes sense that I’m not staying at the office super late every day. Maybe this will change over time. So far my work days have been pretty easy though. Busy, but not stressful and I haven’t had to stay past 5:30 any day. Today officially starts my second week. I was so stressed last Tuesday morning. Worried that I had everything before I left the house and worried that my work clothes would be all wrinkly and furry by the time I got to work. Worried about having enough food to get me through the day. I don’t really know why, but today I just don’t feel that stress.

Mich commented on how happy I was when I got home last night. Its crazy that I can be so happy after driving an hour home from work. But, I’m just so happy to be working and feeling productive again.

And then she sorta had this look and I asked her what was wrong. She said "we’re going to go through this for the next two years." She’s having a hard time at school and keeps flip-flopping over whether to continue or not. She’s so smart and such a good student, but the director of the program is crazy. She has a reputation of driving people to quit (in tears no less). Her tests are unfair, she seems pretty much crazy and unreasonable. I hate seeing Mich so upset with herself when its not really her fault. So, who knows what will happen with Mich’s future. She’s holding off on making any changes at her job until this semester is over.

I know she is taking time away from studying to spend with me though and that makes me feel a little guilty. I don’t demand it though. I try to be as understanding as I can and have pretty much accepted that I’ll be a "student widow" until she’s done with school. But this past Sunday she took a lot of time away from studying to go to bed with me. And there was no regret in the awesome time we had and the intimacy and closeness, but I know she didn’t get as much studying in as she wanted to.

I’m happy we still get those little moments together though. It keeps us close to each other and keeps me feeling close to her. I had some crazy sex dreams all last night because she was teasing me yesterday when I got home from work, but we were both too tired to do anything about it. LOL

We are biding our time until the summer when things will be less stressful for her. Probably more stressful for me as I will be settled into my job and have more responsibility and more to do on my days working from home. But, work rarely if ever affects my home life.

On another note… I asked the Office Manager in the most delicate way I could yesterday about when she thought I would get my cube. She said it takes a really long time and it could be months before the furniture shows up. Months? This is the only part that sucks so far… yesterday, I knew my one boss would be in, so I set up in my other boss’ office. I only had to work in his office for the morning because the other boss told me she was leaving at noon and I should just move back into her office. I guess she’s not there very often and so I’ll get to use her desk a lot, but still… My boss keeps giving me stuff that I would like to be able to store in my desk, and I’ve actually lost something because I don’t have a good place to keep it. Its a bit awkward right now, but I just need to stay flexible.