Wonder

I wonder if Eric would feel good about himself if he knew that he had a huge impact on all my relationships. He affects the way I think and how much I’m willing to give in. He has control over me without having control over me. You know what? I think the Eric I fell in love with is gone. So why in the world would I want the Eric that’s not even close to the one I really wish I had? This sucks..Anyways..I’m gonna try to forget him. Try HARD!

Not to mention, I still have a boyfriend. Which, btw, decided to stop smoking. For me? I don’t know. Hopefully for himself. I feel really bad for him. His electricity just got shut off because (I’m pretty sure) of his dad not paying the electric bill. It’s not the kids’ fault, I know. His dad is an alright dad but definitely has some flaws. Right when I was thinking of breaking up with Rory…this is his time of need. I don’t want to leave him now.