When Do I Get To Live Like That?

Thats right. I’m back from St. Louis! It was an amazing trip. We took about 16 people and it seemed like every 5 minutes I was being annoyed by something or other. But other than that..it was awesome. Walking through the big city, it only made me wish for the day when I get to walk through a city just as large as one of its residents. Although I’m paranoid of strangers walking behind me, theres more pros than cons when it comes to living in a city.

This trip also taught me that…my friendships with people are not totally secure. I can lose a friend easily. Expecially through other people. Have you ever been afraid of not being a best friend to someone? Well, you might be a best friend but there are other people that could easily fill your position if you weren’t around? Its been a common feeling lately for me.

Last night I had a dream..more like a nightmare. Eric was in it. He came down for Thanksgiving and I ran into him, then his girlfriend showed up and introduced me to her. I don’t understand why it was a nightmare, it just gave me that feeling. Just saw on facebook though that Eric is listed as single…and he’s home. : S  Hopefully I will not run into him.