Right?

Trying to keep my head above the water again. I’ve filled out a lot of scholarships and all the homework that is being piled on us. Things are getting hectic! Not to mention..I’m starting to talk to Eric again. Not in person or even on the phone but through facebook. It’s not so bad, I really don’t feel that attached anymore.

It’s like I’m trying not to turn him on anymore. I didn’t mention the day that he made me feel bad about giving him blue balls so I gave him another handjob which didn’t feel wierd at first..but then started to after it took him forever to get off. I asked him not to cum on me and he told me that he would tell me before he was getting there..but guess what he did? Yeah, right on my freakin hoodie..It was disgusting.

I hope I’m not losing myself trying not to get caught up on Rory. Seriously..everytime he looks me in the eye, I tell myself not to fall. This is wrong..I know…but can’t it be right for right now?