OMG

So..its Sunday. I’m still at Donetta’s. We all got drunk last night. Including Brandon (bartender). He came up last night but I don’t think he wanted to. But I begged him. His truck was f-ing up and so he rode up here with Doni’s boyfriend, Aaron. We definitely made it hard on each other. But whatever..it was another night in his arms. Probably my last one..but I don’t know. All I know is he is smarter than I am and is probably going to end it again very soon. Maybe today. I guess I will see when it gets closer to noon. It is definitely my fault that I am so broken inside.

Josh told me the other day that he couldn’t believe that I started drinking. He said that that was one of my biggest turn-ons. Did I lose my something that seperated me from everyone else? Should I want to take it back? No..I don’t want to take it back. That would be taking back like 4 nights of fun!