Clarities

Maybe I should elaborate on this dilemma between Eric, Rory, and myself.

What my heart truely feels is sometimes hard to put  into words.  I do love Rory and for a long while I figured we would be together forever, but somethings change. I just turned 19. If Eric coming back into my life will make me think twice about Rory, then he’s not who I’m supposed to be with. At least not yet.

Clarifying that, I didn’t break up with Rory for Eric. I needed this time to myself. This time to think. This time to decide or maybe even not to decide.

I will never ever regret losing that precious and most valuable gift of mine to Rory. It was an amazing experience. This does not mean that I will go whoring myself around. I don’t need that. And I’ll never have sex with someone I wasn’t in love with.

I’ve got to stop writing now because I’m at work..and..I don’t want anyone reading this confidential, personal, stuff.

Melissa