Battling Mood Swings

Goodness, it’s already February and I haven’t wrote to you. I miss writing, I just wish I had more time to do it.

Let me recap for you. Some horror, some in the middle, and good news.

Horror: worst day of my life, my birthday. January 6th, my brother tells me he tried to kill himself. He took down about 3 different kinds of pills, and according to my mom, it was a lot. Luckily, he just got really sick, nothing more. My dad took him to the hospital where they fed him some more pills. I told Mom he needs more. More counseling. more something. Nothing has happened yet. And although, he seems to be fine now, I’m still scared shitless.

Some in the middle: So, I’ve gotten so close to Cory. We had a fling, now we are just best friends. Although, I don’t know. I’m so confused. He’s a really awesome person though and I’d hate to lose him. I’d really hate to lose him. And I haven’t had a boyfriend since October 31st which I kind of pride myself on because it’s been while since I have been single this long. It’s a weak thing to pride  yourself on, but I have to find a strength of mine somewhere, right? Well, this friday (aka the day before Valentine’s Day), I actually have a date. It’s nothing big because he wouldn’t want a relationship anyway. It’s Dylan. Not sure if I’ve mentioned him before. He’s like one of those boys in which if you’ve ever had feelings for, they never go away. The good thing is that I can’t see myself in a serious relationship with him, so these "dates" that we’ve been going on pose no danger for me.

Good: I started volunteering for school at this assisted living facility here. I love it. I’ve had wonderful experiences so far. I’m in charge of game night 🙂 My job is going well, almost promoted into a lead position. School is great. Trying to stay on top of things.

That’s it for now, I gotta get ready for work.