4/1/07

April Fools!

Today was a wierd one. It didn’t feel like April Fools. Maybe it’s because it fell on a Sunday. Johnathan came over and spent like the whole day here. Pretty sweet. We watched Thank You for Smoking and Mr. Deeds. He is a pretty good guy. I know my parents loved him. He’d be a great best friend. It’s a shame that he is only a junior.

We all went to the cabin Friday.  A couple of more people than what came last time were there including Alex and Rory. It was the first time I actually saw Rory get high. He didn’t really act any different..except for when he finally came to bed. He kind of asked that I give him a hand job..it was really awkward for me. I started but then he wanted me to spit on my hand so that it would feel better. This made me feel even more awkward. After I almost slowed to a stop he finally realized that something was wrong. And said that if I didn’t want to do it, I didn’t have to and I told him that I didn’t. He said that anytime I didn’t want to do anything that I didn’t have to and to just tell him. I don’t really know how I feel.

So, I’ve decided. I’m going to Mizzou!! It’s so exciting. The money scares me. I don’t want to be in debt in loans but I’ll pay it off eventually. It feels like I belong to Mizzou. My heart is there and always has been. I’ve finally most everyone…some are happier than others. I’m scared to be away from Lacey..but we’re best friends. We are gonna be different. We are not gonna grow apart.

Well, love to stay and talk..but got school tomorrow!