rough few days

It’s been a rough few days for me. I’ve felt very alone, overwhelmed, and hopeless. But I survived to greet another day thanks to the help of my friends.

Chris and Melissa got to listen to me yak on during and after rehearsal yesterday. Thank God they provide a comfortable and safe venue when I need it most. Casey and I were having a bad lack of communication night last night. I was tired and didn’t want to talk about it, and he wanted to talk a lot. I humored him a bit, but didn’t really get to the core of the problems yet.  He wanted to talk about screen play ideas and directing and stuff.  He’s into that. I’m not as much. Anyway, Casey was MIA most of the day yesterday, and most of the day today. I’m glad he’s getting his stuff taken care of and I hope he does well, but I really wish I could spend this weekend with him. I’ve needed him a lot, but don’t want to burden him. He burnt me a Joni Mitchell CD the other day. 🙂 I was so happy.

Some KDRs just walked by on their way to play frisbee. It looks like fun. Good day to do it, too. Warm, pretty. Hope Casey gets over there to play. He’d enjoy that a lot. I won’t see him until like 9pm. It may be an all-nighter for me. We’ll see.

Anyway…

Keith isn’t coming up today after all. I’m kind of bummed about it, but I have a test to study for. I will probably fail, but I’m going to take it anyway.

Tom talked to me a lot last night. He made me feel a little better, I guess. He’s a good friend. We stopped by the liquor store on the way to Chris and Melissa’s so that I could buy something to drown my sorrows. I know it’s not good to do that, but I feel better today after having a good bit of alcohol last night. At least I am a responsible drinker, and get sober rides.

I’ve got more stuff to do, and I’m gonna go for now.

If it’s warm tonight, I might ask Casey if he wants to take a walk and talk about stuff. I miss that.