ahhh.. i wish things were different

Well, its 10:30 and im sitting here at home not doing anything. I can’t go out cause my rent dont want to stay up to let me in the house and they wont let me have a key. So, its a Friday night and i really wish i wasnt here being so bored.

Thats one thing i miss about being out on my own. I had no one to answer to and i could go out with people and i didnt need to give explanations for everyone and everything. I mean i wouldnt mind if it was just like where u going and when u coming back. But its not, i have to have a back history on everyone i go out with and if its a guy then they think or at least anounce that im sleeping with everyone.. (my flavor of the week) It kinda pisses me off. I dont want to say anything. I just deal with it. But, it really does bother me.

Yea, right now, im having fun with my friends and going out with friends i havent seen in a while. And some new friends. Big deal.

Also, i have been talking to someone that makes me laugh and is letting me take my time.. in thinking about a realtionship. So, im taking my time and im thinking everything threw its not like im jumping in to bed with everyone i know..

Ahhh…. Well, thats all i had to get off my chest right now.. if i think of anything else ill come back…to this subject.