It Is What It Is?

I know that this is so wrong but work is so slow. While I am at home and I try to write the time just whizzes by. Like last night I sat down to write but ended up reading instead. I guess I am more interested in finding out what is going on with others than getting my crap out there. What a bunch of crap I have…

As you know I don’t really talk about Mr. Secret that much and I will be talking about him even less now. He stopped calling me! I feel like I was an addiction that he had to wean himself off of. He used to call me every day! Sometimes more than once. Sometimes three times. About a year ago he started calling me less. "You are busy, you have a lot of people in your life." He always made it sound like he didn’t want to bother me even though I told him that his calls were the highlight of my day. That is the truth, I looked forward to his calls. I didn’t get to see him very often so I looked forward to his calls.

The calls started coming once a day, then every couple of day. Every three days? Seriously? He would tell me "I don’t do anything to really talk about." Once a week…then NOTHING! I have not spoken to him since December 23. Today I sent him a text, I said "It is what it is but I would like to know why."

For some reason I think that I should feel worse about it! Maybe deep down inside I think that I knew that it was coming to an end. Did I do anything to stop that from happening? No! Do I care? Yes, I do care but not enough to let it get me down. Maybe I am just too tired to fight. I am confused but that is it! Nearly six years and this is how it is!

I guess it is time to turn the page and start a new chapter in my life.