I Feel Good!

If you’d like to read about he Dru Sjodin case this is the link to the articles in the local newspaper

I didn’t actually have the house to myself because the kids were here and Nadine had a friend spend the night. But that is just as good as having the house to myself because Dick was not here.

He told me “I am just going to Larry’s” and when he said that it really did not even fit into the conversation. I think that he slid it in so that I would think that he was at Larry’s.

I really don’t think that he was at Larry’s and I don’t care if he was or wasn’t there. He wasn’t here so I was happy. That is so out of character for me! Normally if I had thought that he was lying to me I would have been investigating his story. I would have called Larry’s house and listened very carefully to the background noise. If that did not satisfy me I may have driven to town. Then I would have called bright and early in the morning to see if he was still at Larry’s or if he had spent the night elsewhere. I didn’t even think of that part of it until I pondered “what would have I done a year ago?”

I am healing! I did not call ~ not last night, not this morning. I did not even have the urge to call because I don’t give a rat’s ass where he was or what he was doing!

This may sound so mean but being the “green-eyed monster” that I can be it is an accomplishment. I have told him before that I want nothing to do with him yet I would get mad when he did things without me.

I am feeling all giddy and happy with myself. I passed the test! Even when he said that he was going to Larry’s I thought that I would be mad after a while.

Why does this excite me so much? Should I really be this excited? I am excited because I am not so emotionally dependent on him anymore. I am not being let down when my expectations are not met. It is a great feeling!