Feeling Grumpy

 

I am so sick and tired of trying to figure out how the hell to get these bills paid. With that $600 taken out of the checking account and having to move money from savings ~ we have nothing!!! We only had a little over $500 in savings left. I moved $500. Now we have NOTHING! The kids told me that they went to the bank yesterday and Dick got like $269. Okay that could have gone into the account so I would not have to worry about getting some more bills paid. He does not even fucking look at a bill! If I don’t write the due dates on the mailing envelope he would not have clue one. I am getting to HATE him. Maybe because he is having all the fun and I am having all the stress! Found in kitchen when I got home case of beer and case of soda ~ not soda that the kids like but soda that he mixes with his booze! I am so upset right now. The day did not start out very good to begin with ~ feeling emotional and I have no clue why.

At that point I had to get out of the house. I was ready to have a melt down. One thing that I do not do is have a melt down in front of my kids. I just don’t. I was not sure what I was going to do so I went out and looked at my flower bed bed of weeds. I have so neglected my flowerbed this year. I just don’t care yet it bothers me that it is so full of weeds. The Hollyhocks are trying to take over the world. I keep pulling the little ones and more just keep popping up. I was disgusted so I pulled the weeds around the peas and that was it. I was on my way back into the house not feeling any better but I averted a melt down all together. Rather than coming in the house I hopped on the bicycle that Tyler got from the neighbor lady ~ it is a ladies 10-speed and I took a three mile bike ride. Yeah, Lucy and exercise! Like that ever happens. I was going to go farther but I had nothing to drink with me. I was tired and thirsty so I turned around. So today Lucy got some sun and some exercise! I am going to tell Tyler that if he uses one tool on that bike I am going to kick his ass. If I were a cruel mother I would claim the bike to be mine. It was given to Tyler, not me. It is a nice bike and just like new. The tires even still have the nubs on them. Why did she give Tyler her bike?

After my three mile bike ride I was hot, tired, and thirsty. I drank a glass of water then hopped in the shower. After my shower I wrapped my wet hair in a towel and took a nap. I could sleep longer but I have to go to work.

I am going in late because stupid me invited the kids across the street to swim since Tyler got in the pool ~ damn you Lucy can’t you ever keep your mouth shut? I just thought that it was rude of Tyler to get in the pool and not invite these kids since he was playing with them in the yard. Ugh!

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