Digging, Throwing, and Burning

After days of digging out, throwing out, and burning I finally have a bedroom. The spare room that I formerly called the pit is now my bedroom!

I had Dick drill a hole through the closet in the girls room and through the closet in “my” room so that I could splice off to the satellite receiver in the girls room. We have to watch the same program but I usually don’t watch TV until I go to sleep. Does that make any sense? I have to go to sleep with the TV on ~ I usually set the timer so that the TV shuts off after so long, depending on how tired I am.

I moved the telephone table into my room and I recovered the seat with material that is a purple floral print. I have a house dress that I made out of the same material. I moved the green corner stand into my room along with my angel and the basket of flowers that I arranged. I have a chair in there too ~ I have that covered with the cream colored blanket that my sister gave me for my birthday. Sitting on the chair is a cream colored monkey and a cream colored bear. Oh, I moved my little lamp too. Tomorrow I will move my clothes. I wish that I could put my vanity in there too but I just don’t have the space.

Now I have a place for when I want some private time. Usually to cry ~ I refuse to let Dick see me cry and I don’t want my kids to see me cry. I am a cry-baby. But at least I am not angry all the time anymore. I think that I am shedding the pent up tears from years and years ago.

I still have to go through the stuff in the closet ~ old decorations. I don’t decorate like I used to. Up North we lived in a shit hole and it did not matter if I put holes in the wall with tacks or if I used tape on the wall. It was so run down that it didn’t matter ~ nothing could make it worse. Now I don’t want to put holes in the walls so I don’t decorate unless I can do it without making holes. I will be making holes in my bedroom walls ~ I am hanging picture of my kids. That I don’t care about!

Since I have not been working I have been trying to become a normal person. Going to be at a normal time and getting up at a normal time so I am off to bed. Heck it’s early for me ~ only about 12:30. But here I go ~ goodnight!