Collecting Ammo

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I made it home just fine. We did not get nearly what was predicted but if we wait long enough it is sure to show up ~ probably without warning.

When I got home Dick was not home he was at the neighbors playing poker. This is just a thought but…even though the weather was not that bad there was new snow and some blowing snow. Male neighbor does nighttime snow removal for business parking lots. So I think that male neighbor was not home and Dick and female neighbor have something going. Now I am not positive about this and I really don’t care. I am just documenting and I will find out if male was home Wednesday night. Just for the sake of ammunition. Not that I am going to say anything to male neighbor ~ nothing to lose, I can play dumb too.

Dick is back over there again tonight. Which is good because I had to put up with him all day today. My day off and he stayed home from work. Maybe too tired since he did not get in until 4 AM.

I was up reading a book. It is a good book that everyone should read. “He is Just Not That Into You” Had I had this book years ago it would have saved me from wasting over 15 years with this jackass. Every scenario ~ been there! It really blew me away. So almost 16 years ago when we first started dating “he was not into me” and he still isn’t.

Come spring someone is moving! Most likely me but I am not getting any younger and I don’t want to grow old alone. How can I find a guy that would be into me if I live with one that is not? I am charging full speed ahead and looking for Mr. Into Lucy!

I can not put my life on hold for another 9 years waiting for Tyler to become an adult. That sounds so selfish but I don’t think that the kids would mind all that much. Maybe I should have a discussion session to see how they would feel.

At one time I was really into him but I am no longer into him. Moving on and collecting ammunition along the way.