Adulthood Begins

I have been terrible about updating ~ reading and writing. I am not sure what I have been doing that keeps me away from OD. I guess I do go through phases and I am on the “out” phase right now.

I wanted to be ready for bed the floor by one AM. I have about eight minutes but I don’t think that I will make it. I have not done everything that I wanted to accomplish. I have birthday cards to make ~ my big son will be 18 years old in about 5 hours.

I can remember the night before like it was yesterday. His father thinks that he was born the morning after a bingo night but it was not a bingo night that would have been Friday night. It was Saturday night that I went into labor ~ he was born early (6:03) Sunday morning.

We were upstairs playing cards with my parents ~ they lived in an upstairs apartment we lived in a ground level apartment in the same building. When we left my dad said “I will leave the door open for you.” My mother said “don’t you think that she will let her fingers do the walking?” I left them with their “argument.” I had no flipping clue what either one of them were talking about. Todd and I went to our apartment around midnight ~ he went to bed I stayed up because I was uncomfortable “with a bladder infection.” I stayed up and guzzled water like there was no tomorrow. This is too painful I want to get rid of this bladder infection.

Around 3 AM I decided that the pain was not from the bladder infection that I had been diagnosed with ~ I was in labor.

My mother knew, my dad knew, for crying out loud even my sister’s skuzzy ex-boyfriend knew that I was in labor yet no one said one word to me about it. Apparently they had all been watching me all night. I would re-position my body and hold my breath ~ yet I had no clue that I was doing that! (They told me after Derek was born.)

I was mad at the doctor when he gave me a shot of Demerol. I did not ask for any pain medication! I was in hard labor but nothing was happening and they wanted me to relax. I worried about my dad drinking all the coffee. I remember that I dozed off on the delivery table and Todd trying to wake me but the doctor told him to leave me be. “Let her rest, she is tired, and she has a long way to go.” I was all doped up but I remember that plain as day.

Todd’s sister took the very first photo of Derek. I know that I have posted it here before ~ it is my favorite one of my favorite photos of him.

I can’t find it but I think that I posted it on his 16th birthday. Now there are just the little boxes with the red X in the center.

I will find it and post it sometime!

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