leave me alone

Its becoming so easy to pretend. easy to pretend things are fine. so if ive become so good at petending that means me being fine is right around the corner right? i I mean its only up from here right? know my fate, and somehow that makes it easier for me. I dont like it. Hate it in fact, but I have to respect it dont I? I just need to get that old dream outta my head, but its so hard when HE still IMs, and texts and calls and shows up in my dreams. The universe isnt being fair to me. Its making it hard on me. and for what? what the hell did i ever do to it? Ive always turned to fate but fate has shown me two different sides. its tricking me and I literally dont have time for games. so leave me be. just leave me alone