just keepin’ it real

"love me today, and hate me tommorow." i just wish the elements in my life would line up together to make a perfect fit. like if i snapped my fingers everything would be in its place. ahhh but thats wishful thinking. life isnt easy, in fact its the hardest thing we have to do. live. u want the best job u have to work for it. u want the perfect relationship u have to work at it. u want nice things, u have to– well u get the point. but ppl are lazy, ppl want it easy. why do u think ppl take 5 min smoke breaks?? cause they are stressed out and tired of working. everyone wants a vacation from their everyday life whether it be for 5 minutes or a week by the beach. in fact thats why ppl work. they work until its lunch time, or they work up until they can get a smoke break. they work their asses off for vacation time. everyone wants to chill…all the time. give someone the option of working or just chilling i bet they’d choose chillin, and ud be a liar if u say otherwise.

my point is i dont even have the perfect job yet so i have years to go before ive worked enough to have a break in life that is worth something. but i want my paid vacation right now. i want my perfect relationship right now. i want the kids to have full rides to the college of their choice. i want a beach house in the bahamas and i want to travel the world with my hubby living off our riches. and get this, this is the catch, cause there is always a catch–i want it now at age 24. hahahaha yeah im laughing too cause that is just ridiculous and i know it. im black and im lazy, go figure the white ppl were right. but who doesnt want to be wealthy???

now even though i want the easy way out i know that cant happen. im not an idiot. a girl can dream cant she. so ill have to work my butt off to get the things i want. i just have to realize that while im trying to achive the life i want, im living now. this is my life its happening everyday…and thats on the real.