Words are useless

I was so blind. I was so close to the truth the whole time.
Then again I wasn’t. Was I? Ever been in that situation? All I thought of was the truth. Now I know it. He should of said it to me the couple of times I asked him for it.
I feel that all hope is lost. I feel that I can’t live on. I feel I’m alone.
Words are useless!
Sometimes it helps to write here. Now it doesn’t. I feel so so so SAD. So alone… I got drunk today but nothing kills the pain. It is so beautiful… It is so powerful… Love is! I cried today. Now I’m seeking for relief. Nobody can talk to me.! Nobody can! I feel alone!
I thought he was a friend!