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Hi all.

I am starting the 3 day military diet TOMORROW! (therhotonfamily.blogspot.com/2012/08/3-day-military-diet.html)

If you did not read my first entry, PLEASE do not make any discouraging comments about this diet.  If I fail (I won’t) then you can give me your 2 cents, but please, for now, only encouraging words 🙂 Thank you. 

First, a little bit of a background on my weight:

Before I got pregnant, in 2006, I weighed roughly 120 pounds.  I had my son a month early in August of 2007 and I weighed about 140 pounds.  About three months after I had my son my back started to hurt.  I just brushed it off hoping that it would go away on its own, but it didn’t.  I went to the doctors and found out I had levoscoliosis in the lower lumbar spine and a posterolateral right disc protrusion at L4-L5.  They gave me injections and different medications, none of which helped the pain.  The pain got bad and fast.  I had to continue working as a medical transcriptionist to pay the bills, but I could only sit for about 5 minutes before I would have to curl up in a fetal position on the floor, usually right under my desk as I couldn’t go far.  

I don’t want people to think I was trying to get attention.  I can handle pain well and normally just tough it out.  But most mornings I couldn’t stand.  I would have to roll off the side of my bed and pull myself up to a standing position using mostly my arms.  Any weight on my legs caused shooting pains down my right side that were so unbearable I would usually just collapse.  I had NOTHING to ease the pain.  They gave me every pain pill they could and nothing seemed to touch the pain.  I was miserable.  

I can remember one occasion in particular I was on the floor in the living room curled up in a fetal position (that was the only way to relieve a small amount of pain)  my son probably about age 2 was on the couch and my boyfriend (now fiance) was in a different room.  I remember my son had bumped his head on the arm of the couch, I believe, and he screamed in pain.  Being his mother, I wanted nothing but to comfort him and rub his poor little head.  I tried to get up to help him and instant pain shot through my body.  I felt so helpless, not being able to help my son.  I know it wasn’t a life or death situation and, of course, my son was fine, but not being able to comfort my son when he was crying made me feel so useless.  I cried so hard; I just felt like that was it for me.  How could I live a happy life always in pain. 

I lived that way for a year, unable to stand up straight, unable to sleep without waking up in pain every 30 minutes, took me hours to fall asleep because I was in so much pain.  Needless to say, I gained a LOT of weight.  I got bigger than I had ever been in my life. 

December of 2009 I went into my doctors, still looking for something to relieve the pain.  He told me I needed to exercise and lose weight.  I couldn’t take it, I broke into tears.  I was depressed and miserable and could barely move and he wanted me to exercise!  I could barely get to my mailbox and back without having to lay down for the next 3 hours to recover.  How in the world was I supposed to exercise.  He got all mad, basically treated me like I was faking it and I was just lazy and wanted drugs, which was not at all the case.  He walked out of the room and came back, extremely irritated and handed me a paper bag of Ultram ER samples and told me that they probably wouldn’t help and the only thing I could do was lose weight.  I took one a day and within a week, ONE WEEK, I was better.  As if it never existed.  I could stand up straight, I could walk, I could run, I could take care of my son, it was AMAZING!

My insurance didn’t cover the Ultram ER so, when I ran out, I was given the generic brand, which had to be taken 4 times a day.  I am TERRIBLE at taking pills and I really just hate taking pills period.  I took them on time at first but then here and there I would accidentally miss a dose and noticed that I still wasn’t in pain.  When the pain didn’t come back I just slowly stopped taking them at all.  I have been perfectly fine since then, but have yet to lose weight because I just never tried.  I notice that when I over do it my back gets a little sore and I just take that as a sign that it is time to take a break.

I know that the back issues I have are still there, they can’t be fixed without surgery, and at any time they could come back and put me back in that situation.  IT IS TIME to lose this weight!  I don’t want to get back to that point.  I CAN’T get back to that point.  So here I am!

I weigh more than I ever have in my life and it is only increasing.  This is why I am starting the 3 day military diet! I know it will be hard, but I am SO READY! 😀

 

Now for the fun part… well it will be fun when I start losing weight and I am able to compare hehe

 

This is me now

Weight: 202.8 pounds

I wanted to put measurements up as well, but I haven’t gotten a chance to take those yet, so HOPEFULLY I will have them soon so that I can compare 🙂