NoJoMo 06 – Everything about BF

My first Best Friend would probably have been Vanessa Verbicky. Her and I were friends for a LONG time. We lived right across the street from each other. We were inseperable. Both of our parents were close. Vanessa and I used to compete fro Aubrey’s attention (Aubrey was a neighbor girl).  Her cat gave birth to a litter of kittens and That is where I got my first pet kitten. But the mom played outside with the other kittens across the street and my kitten got out one day and ran back.  I think i took it to soon.

Vanessa and I were really unseperable. But one day she found out that she would be moving. This devistated me. She became MEAN and bitter towards me. Maybe it was her way of dealing. But one instance stood out most we were playing this board game and her brother convinced her to take my game piece and run inside with it. This is a brandnew game i got for my birthday. I was banging on the glass door with my arm to get the piece back (since she looked me out) and the door broke. My arm was cut and i ran home crying. She was so upset i broke her down (ON ACCIDENT) that she tore my board game in half.

For like 6 months I was not allowed to be her friend, we were not allowed to talk and the LAST day.. when the movers were moving her. She and I "Friended" again for one last day. It was REALLY sad she said she was sorry for cuasing me to get a scar. I said I was sorry for the door. We both cried for an hour when she was getting ready to leave.  I never seen or heard from her again.
*sad really*
 

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Breakfast: 12 oz Oatmeal with brownsugar
Snack: 90 calorie granola bar
Lunch: Grilled Cheese with bacon on Texas Toast, Fries
2 Hard boiled eggs
 Snack: 1 Oatmeal rasin cookie

So today has been uneventful. Well minus a really nice talk with Paul. Nothing about US, or Him and Her. Just a good chat. Like Friends would have. it was nice. I think i am accepting the fact that I love paul and don’t want to lose what we have even if it just means friends. But i REALLY do feel that I am not fully ready to be with him anyways.. never really was. still working on me.

I called Sarah today. Its her birthday. We were talking about movies, I REALLY want to go see one. But i have rentals at home to watch. I think tonight I am going for Grandma Boy and Run fat boy run.

I know lunch was kinda bad today..  but meh.. i will eat a good dinner. I hope anyway