#14 – Today is a day

Man today had been such an up and down day.
i have been SO off with my hormones. Something is off I tell ya! OY!

Well NOW its techincally the 14th … lastnight Paul and I were just at home, we watched Men and Black (cute movie) and then Started to watch the movie SICKO.. I tell you. I normally DONT watch movies that mike moore makes. But after watching this one I swear I am going to be WAY more involved with voting .. To think that our medical coverage system is like that.. it makes me sick.
I would recommend this if you want to just learn about it some. Keeping in mind that YES its going to be a one sided movie on how the US medical industries cheat us out of what i feel we truly deserve.

Afterwards we head over to Kels and Jer to hangout for a bit. Kelly’s friend from highschool, Josh, was there. I guess Paul knew him too. So the boys talked some, Kelly and I looked at her wedding proofs album and then We had to leave to go home, so i could get ready for work. 🙂 I was in an alright mood when i got here. . . But then i found out i made a mistake on Friday night that caused a LOT of problems later and becasue i did not escalate right I am getting written up. I REALLY hope this does not impact my chances to get into the command center positions still open.  I mean I did write a clarify for my issue friday. But i failed to dispatch it.  So It seems like i tried to cover up my mistake. NOPE just got really busy. Oh well. I am not arguing the mistake and the write up. I am JUST saying i did not try to hide it.

I have been arguing so much with Paul. I am being SO nagging. and cranky. I know its because i completely changed my cycle for my birth control. See I was stressing a lot so my period was a few days later then normal. SO I called my doctor and asked if I could switch up me pills so i can experience a NORMAL period. So anyways. I did. I just took my pill today. So hopefully I will be a bit better! I feel bad. Paul doesn’t ALWAYS deserve my nagging.

I really am very happy with him. Things are slowing getting to apoint where its possible to see a future past a year with him. I mean. When I took him back I KNEW that i would be bringing in a HUGE chance to get hurt. And I held on to that fear for a LONG time. Causing MANY fights and MANY tears. But Slowly he started to show me I was wrong in my fear. I am Really happy because I have never had a man tell me as many times a day as he does how much he loves me and needs me. Even if we fight. I still love him. I fight becuase the love I have wants me to .. If that makes any sense.

I know I have wrote about lots of things he has done to hurt me .. I am sure I have done something to hurt him, NOT in the same manor. But maybe my words are words that hurt like actions. Who knows. But I mean he has his ex writing him and he just ignores her. Its wonderful because It just proves to me that I could be with him. I really really love him. We have a strong bond.. *sigh* <3<3 I love this boy!!!

I want to go home now. OY! Work sucks! Well Im done for now!