spellbound

I haven’t really updated much in here so think its time to do a quick lil catch up…

As some of you know my mom and I made a deal over a year ago that come my 21st birthday she would kick the drunk out or I would no longer talk to her(to be honest I don’t remember my side of the deal when it first was made but that’s the condition I came up with when the shit hit the fan) and a month later she called and said by April he would be out because that’s when her rent contract ends. well April 4 (resigning day) came along and I called on the way to class to see if she had taken over as the primary signer and she said no…that she kept it how it was…as in she’s not kicking him out…as in she’s going to keep screwing up her life. I hung up and literally started sobbing. it was like my mom saying she was dieing or that she hated me cuz in a way that’s what she was saying. hes threatened her so many times in his drunken rages and it scares the crap out of me. after a few minutes I called her back sobbing and said I had to give her a piece of my mind. I told her that I knew she wasn’t happy and that I know she loved George but I loved josh and even though recently he asked me back I didn’t go back to him cuz I knew he wasn’t the right thing…I knew god had a better plan for me. I told her I wanted her to be happy and I was sick of her destroying her life with a drunk ass bastard who is tearing her life apart. well as soon as I said this I realized I was on speaker phone cuz next thing I hear is George screaming at me to shut my fucking mouth and blah blah blah. She told him to shut up because it was the truth but than went on to say she just couldn’t move out. The conversation ended with me refreshing her memory of the deal and telling her that unlike HER I keep my word and though it will break my heart as of August I will no longer speak to her until they are no longer together.

School is hectic but good. I don’t know how but I’m on the freaking president’s list…meaning I have a 4.0 gpa. my gpa was not a 4.0 when I transferred but either way I’m not complaining. the president’s list can really help me out later in the job search 😀

Me and Ethan are doing great. stupid me had a mood swing last week where I was just completely down and kept thinking of stupid crap but its all good now. me and Samantha went and looked at wedding rings and such. I kept telling her that I wasn’t into the big expensive rings and than I saw this hand engraved engagement ring that could blind a small country if the sun hit it the right way and I fell in love..looked at the price and almost shit a brick…THREE THOUSAND DOLLARS! oh well…back to the simple life.

Got my first paid photography job….made a 150 dollar profit from doing something I love. doing another one tomorrow so yay for extra income 😀

Also got the new lacuna coil cd….god I love them. I’ve listened to that cd everyday and all day since I’ve got it.

God this entry is getting way too long…mama drama took up most of it lol. well time to sleep…seems like that’s what I’m always doing right after I write in here