scary expectations

stupid boys going fast in their big ass toys. so the youngin got a ticket today taking me home lol. i swear I have no idea how he was 23 mph over the speed limit but considering he was the only car on the road i guess we really can’t fight that one. he took it a lot better than anyone i’ve seen….even better than i did. he didn’t even fight it and when i got mine i pulled every trick in the book….stripped down to my under shirt and pushed the twins up a bit before he got to my car and when that didn’t work i pulled the crying bit and that didnt work either. luckily i got out of it by donating to the juvenile deliquency fund of some small town in tennessee. ive never seen someone take it hard but so calm. he just sat there and said "yes sir" and "no sir" and when it was all said and done he logically thought things through and never got flaming pissed or anything.to be honest his whole reaction scared the crap out of me at first though. its like my whole live i’ve witnessed first hand this family that blames everyone around them for their mistakes. screaming, yelling, cussing, and blaming anyone around them when they screwed up and right when we pulled off thats what i expected from him. when i didn’t get that reaction and instead a "its not your fault at all baby" when i said i was sorry it blew my freaking mind away! idk…the whole night kinda has me thinking about my expectations in life and how i need to re-evaluate some things.

speaking of family…my dad called today. we were just chatting about college loans when all of a sudden he goes "by the way i’m having heart surgery tomorrow." Um…what the hell?? Supposedly they think there is a blockage and he’s going to a German hospital tomorrow to get it checked out and all. He’s pretty sure he’ll be there overnight. I’m praying that it’ll all be ok.

so this one guy i know is going to try and get me a job at this bar he goes to. i’m so desperate i dont even care what it is as long as its not fast food….ICK!

off to bed…maybe.