lyrics question sanity

Most people know that my life mostly revolves around music. For one, I have a music memory. Its like anytime I hear a song I immediately remember every single moment, emotion, or person that was around or I thought of while listening or singing it.  Last night I was crampy and feeling like I was going to implode so I started surfin some music on youtube when I came across a new song by Taylor Swift. Now first I have to say that I really don’t like her voice that much but the lyrics to her music hit so many places in my heart that I can’t help but like her songs. The song is called They Way I Loved You and its all about being in a relationship with "a perfect gentlemen" who does everything right and everyone loves him but the girl still can’t stop missing the crazy first love she had with the guy before and all I can think about is "youngin" and Josh.

Youngin-

"He is sensible and so incredible
and all my single friends are jealous
he says everything I need to hear and it’s like
i couldn’t ask for anything better
he opens up my door and i get into his car
and he says you look beautiful tonight
and i feel perfectly fine"

Josh-

"but i miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain
and it’s 2am and i’m cursing your name
you’re so in love that you act insane
and that’s the way I loved you
breakin’ down and coming undone
it’s a roller coaster kinda rush
and I never knew I could feel that much
and that’s the way I loved you"

And just thinking this alone scares the crap out of me. I want to move on and get on with my life but I wonder if being in a relationship with a younger guy…too much younger *slaps self*…WHILE still having such strong feelings for A FREAKING ASS is good at all for me. I need help. What should I do???