dose of cuddling

so i’ve been at my cousins house since friday night and its been pretty chill. mostly just been playin xbox 360 or watchin movies (fyi cloverfield sucks). anyways i was suppose to head back to my place tonight but youngin came over here and by the time he left i really didnt feel like drivin back. spending some quality time with him was great though. we spent like 4 to 5 hours just cuddling watching movies with my cousins and when im around him it just feels like home, like i’m suppose to be there. only other person i’ve had that with was with josh when things were great. its when i’m not around him that i get to thinking about all the ifs and buts. i dont regret taking things slow though and taking a few steps back but i really dont think ending it is the answer. he says he can’t wait to surprise me on valentine’s….i’m still a little cautious but excited too. well monday i start work…CANT WAIT! not all that excited about juggling school and work but i know i can do it. just actually have to do all my school stuff once i get home at night. well i’m going to finish watching waterboy, maybe take a shot of goldschlagger to help put me down, and get to sleep. g’night all.