At Water’s Edge

Hello Diary.

It’s almost 3am and I’m not sleeping even though I should be. was going through some of the things I’ve written down over the years and posted on my personal blog and I came across this.

I wrote this after reading a short romance story online. It sort of spoke to me and I channeled it into this.

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Sitting at the edge of the water

Staring at the ocean

Wondering if it was as deep as my love for you

My eyes close, I let my thoughts of you roam

You take me into your arms

Your head pressed against my back

No words said, just feelings felt

It was perfect, nothing to could ruin it

I never cared about anything else

I never wanted you to leave

i needed you with me every night

You needed my heart, my love

I would give it to you over and over again

We should’ve been together forever

We made promises,

We made sacrifices.

Why did Fate have to be so cruel?

Happiness always seemed to elude me

I couldn’t save you

Now I needed to be saved too

Your memories haunt me

I want you out of my life

But I take you back every night

I can’t sleep without your image in my head

I wish I could see you one more time

Outside of my head

Feel your body one more time

Your lips on mine

I want to get lost in your eyes again

I need to hear you say you love me one more time

Could I ever fall in love again?

You took my heart when you left

I’m empty, just a hollow shell

I had a wall, I put up my defenses

You sneaked past and I fell

You left! No hugs, no goodbyes

I knelt beside your bed,

Holding your cold hands hoping you would feel it

Hoping you would hear my voice,

Find your way back to me

Silence…

I knew your were gone,

I couldn’t accept it

How was I to live without you?

Lord take me too

She didn’t deserve to be there alone

She needed me

I needed her

The thought of death never felt so appealing

What was on the other side?

I never really cared

Wherever she was, that was home

I would find peace and love again

Sitting at the edge of the ocean

Silently saying goodbye to the world behind

I got up to walk into the water

To let the ocean take me to you

I closed my eyes and smile

Inside I prayed for a sign

That I would be able to go on without you

The water seemed to give way as I proceeded

This was it, this was my last moment

Peace…

Then I felt it, a hand then a voice

All in my head I presumed

Somehow I get pulled out of my reverie

I turned and saw her pulling me

I wasn’t going to let Fate ruin this for me

My lover was waiting for me

But I made a mistake

I looked into my strangers eyes

It captured me

Fear, compassion, pity, love?

Was this my sign?

I followed her lead out of the water

I let her talk me out of it

Maybe I could continue living

Your memory forever etched in my heart

Back at the edge of the water

Staring at the ocean

My saviour’s hand in mine

Supporting me, strengthening me

I’m sorry my love.

I loved you, I always will.

You’re my past but she’s my present

My future.

Fate was kind to me

Gave me a second chance

I would never be free of you

But this is goodbye.

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What did you think about it? Good things I hope.

Much love <3 <3