What’s there to say?

I woke up again to six new matches.  I’ve had 24 matches in four days and 31 in the month of August.    It had me in a terrific mood for most of the day, but sometime towards the end of my work day, I got into some kind of funk where I just felt out of sorts.  I’ve thought about it for most of the afternoon/evening and I’m really not sure why or where it came from.  As I think about it now, I suspect it might have something to do with not being able to work from 7-3:30 as I’d hoped once we hit Labor Day.  Right now, my pretty 6-2:30 shift is going to end at the end of next week. Then after Labor Day, it’s off to 7:30-4, which is dumb.  Seriously, why does Ohio get to work from 7-3:30?  Just doesn’t seem to make sense to me.  Oh well..I should be grateful I have a job, right? That’s what I’m telling myself. 

Steve J. sent me a message today on facebook and I sent him one back. I had a crush on him once upon a time, but after our conversations at the mall late last Winter, not so much.  He’s a nice guy and we’re still friends, but he’s not a potential husband for me.  But I do enjoy talking to him.

At this point, I’m pretty proud of myself for making it to 26 straight days of journalling.  I’ve been reading my scriptures regularly and praying regularly and I paid my tithing today..I’m finally getting onto the path I want to be on.  It’s the path that will lead me to the greatest happiness in my life and will best prepare me for whatever trials I might face.  It’s also the path best suited to see me through those trials. 

Back to all the matches – at this point I’m honestly not sure what to do with all of them.  After I’d pulled my car into the garage today, I sat thinking for a minute.  Every time I’ve had a crush or someone or was simply interested, I’ve made the moves.  I’d like for a man to take an interest in me for once.  For that reason, I’m tempted to let my matches just sit there until someone wants to take an interest in me.  But I’ll pray about it tonight and see what my Heavenly Father thinks about all of it.  I know the matches are a blessing from Him, so having this many must have a purpose.  There’s a reason I have all these matches, even if I can’t see what that reason is just now. 

"Life is measured not by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away."