No equilibrium in my life right now…

I always enjoy going over to Sister G’s.  We usually gab some and then do the song. The song that I picked for Christmas this year is so simple.  But it’s really pretty, as all of Sally DeFord’s stuff is.  But amidst all the insanity in my life right now, I needed that.  Apparently my grandfather is really losing it.  He thinks the lady neighbor is cutting the leaves out of his trees and putting signs in his trees, that she’s turning off his motion detector lights and putting microphones in his house to listen in on his conversations.  If that’s not enough, I’d say there’s probably a 50-50 chance we put Maxie down this week.  Maxie’s got a vet appt on Thursday and my mom specifically told me to say goodbye to her before I leave for work.  She’s been with us for 13 years.  I just…I grew up with her.  I was 11 when we got her.  And then there’s everything going on at work, not to mention surgery in 10 days.  I HATE ALL OF THIS!  I hate it.  That change I felt coming on before – yeah, it’s here and knocking me around.  All I can do is put one foot in front of the other and keep going.  I really just want to curl up in a ball and cry awhile, and I’m generally not a serious crier.  I was reading my scriptures for the night and tonight’s chapter was 2Nephi 32.  It’s a wonderful chapter, but the first three verses were what really got me.  I’m going to do my best to remember that as I move through these troubled times in my life.

"Life is measured not by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away."