Nearly Forgot to Write Tonight

I very nearly forgot to write tonight. I came upstairs about 7:30 intending to settle down on my bed and write a little, then deal with my acne regimen and my teeth.  Didn’t happen.  I ended up sitting in the den awhile and listening to the conversation my mom was having with Stephen about his choices for this year and next.  He’s got some decisions to make regarding his schooling.  Anyway, it’s now a few minutes before my bedtime and I’m finally getting to write. I did however use my Proactive for the first time tonight – we’ll see how well it works.  I’m hoping it works well. 

I was definitely surprised this morning to check my email and find 6 new eharmony matches.  Of course, one of them had already closed the match by the time I really got to check them out late this afternoon.  Oh well – his loss.  I did send questions to Jake from Cincinnati last night but no response yet.  It’s been interesting to see how many matches I’ve had as I’ve started putting my life in the order it should be in.

I’ve had a thought the last few days regarding my surgery in October.  I had this bright idea to make sure there were no sinus cancers (given that I’ve had issues forever I didn’t think it was odd to go looking).  Of course there are, but apparently they’re rare and affect men more than women and affect people more in the East than the West.  So my chances of having it are pretty slim.  But it still got me thinking and wondering…partly because I feel like my life’s on the verge of changing.  It’s like the upward climb of the roller coaster.  I still feel like I’m climbing, but I also feel like I’m close to the top (you can always tell on roller coasters when you’re nearing the top of the crest).  I’m not at the top yet but I can see the top now. And we all know what happens after you reach the top – you come back down.  I think that’s where my feeling over the possible problems with surgery is coming from.  However, there are a lot of different areas in my life that could lead to the change feeling.  In any case, I’m doing my best to leave my life in Heavenly Father’s hands.  If I do that, then I’ll be okay no matter what happens.

"Life is measured not by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away."