Moving Fast

It’s become very clear in the last week that things are moving too fast for me to wait til after surgery to find a new position within the company.  If I wait that long, then I’ll end up on a second shift phone team and that’s second to last thing I want (the last thing of course being job-less).  So come Monday I’m putting my hat into the ring for one of the positions that went out this week.  I’m not sure if I’ll get it, but I need to try.   There’s a lot of sleepless nights happening in our department (myself included) as we all try and decide what’s best for each of us, while trying to keep a job.  I had the brief thought today about perhaps this was my opportunity to go back to school.  But truthfully, I’m not really interested in going back to school.  I’m really not interested in taking on more student debt than I already have.  I’m trying to remain positive and trust in the Lord.  I’m trying to remember that if I put my life in the Lord’s hands, all will work out.  But that being said, I can’t seem to keep from worrying about it.  I’m planning to take something to help me sleep, as I’m not willing to endure another sleepless night where my mind simply doesn’t shut off.  Now while things are moving fast in our office, things are moving quite a bit slower in the other centers.  The difference is the department that most will end up in already exists in my office.  However, my office is the only center to have the department.  So here, that department can onesie, twosie people, whereas in the other centers, it’ll be a mass transfer as the new department gets up and running.

I’m grateful I’m getting a few hours off next week, even if I will likely get stuck with a needle or two.  Oh well.  At least that’s one major step forward towards surgery.  Seriously, I’ll never schedule a surgery or other medical procedure this far in advance again unless it’s my only option.  It’s given me too much time to think about it and gear up for it. 

So tomorrow morning I have to help my mom fertilize the yard (now that it’s finally going to rain, after more than three weeks with no rain – a rarity around here this time of year).  Then the badger game is on, followed by my mom and I heading to see Love Happens with Jennifer Aniston and Aaron Eckhart.  While the badgers are on, I’ll be carving the plastic craft pumpkin I bought onsale today at Michael’s.  The only other big thing this weekend is that Sunday is the Primary Program.  I’ll prepare a short lesson plus a game but definitely no regular lesson.  I long ago learned that on Primary Program day (given that we have Sacrament meeting, then Sunday School, then Priesthood/Relief Society) the kids’ patience gets used up during the program so that there’s none left for class time.  I’m sure during Primary, there will be cake for the kids as there usually is.

"Life is measured not by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away."