Fall’s Here

I thought I’d start this entry by proclaiming the arrival of fall.  Granted, it’s just a passing visit, but it won’t be long before it’s here to stay.  In case you’re wondering, we had a high of 92 on Tuesday, and today it’s raining (the remnants of Gustav) and our high is all of 60.   Cool temps, wind, and rain are the hallmarks of fall around here.  Of course, as we move into late November and December, that rain turns to slush and then snow but still.  Fall’s here.

Second, I’ve realized I’m finally happy with my life.  I’ve known all along that I needed to be happy with my life and accept who I am before I even thought about getting into a relationship.  I’ve always been well aware that if I wasn’t happy without a boyfriend, I’d never be happy with one.  But I’ve come to realize that I truly have to put my trust in the Lord and let Him lead my life, wherever it may go.  I may not always know exactly where I’m going, but if I let Him lead my life, I’ll always be where I’m supposed to be.  I’ve accepted that He doesn’t make mistakes and that He gave me weaknesses that I might turn them into strengths and I can handle that.  I know that life won’t be easy but it will be worth it and that’s what’s important.

Third, I had a rather bizarre dream last night.  I’d had a baby (keep in mind that I don’t have a boyfriend or any kind of a relationship right now) and I still had my primary class and it was time to practice for the primary program (something coming up in three weeks).  At one point, I was in our church building here, and at one point there were people from my ward here in my old house in Illinois.  It was really real and when I woke up, I woke up wanting a baby.  And above all else, the dream was just in sync enough with my life to stick with me all day.  It was one of the few times I’ve remembered what I dreamt.  It was just bizarre, but not so bizarre that it felt off during the dream.  Generally, when I’m having a REALLY bizarre dream, I know during the dream that it’s a dream.  But not this time – this time it was just enough in sync with my life to make me think it was real.