11/29/2009

Yes, tonight’s entry starts week 18 of straight journalling.  Emotionally, I’m just not with it right now.  The LSAT’s still got me on pins and needles and I’ve lost that confidence that I had prior to Friday afternoon.  I’ve got to find some of it again or it’ll all end up a self-fulfilling prophecy.  And then tomorrow starts taking incoming calls on my own and I really…I don’t want to do that.  I’m only reminded of how much I don’t like my job.  And the four day respite went way too fast.  Oh, and it’ll be January 4th before I find out my LSAT score.  Church was great today, but it wasn’t the overwhelming help I’d hoped for.  It’s just…since taking that practice LSAT I’ve been feeling lost again and that’s not the attitude I need for doing well on the LSAT.    I need to do better on the LSAT to get in someplace, that’s for sure.  But I’ve got to shake off the funk I’m in.  Definitely time to continue to put my trust in the Lord.    So this week is full of studying, followed by not picking up a single LSAT book on Friday night or Saturday morning and then poking around on Time Magazine’s website Saturday morning.  I had been using the LSAT and thoughts of law school to get through my days at work, but I’m just in such a funk with that that I’m not sure how I’ll get through tomorrow – another thing to give to my Heavenly Father.

"Life is measured not by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away."