The One with the Mini V-Day Rant

 I am so tired of the self-righteous who lump everyone not like them in their beliefs and ideals into a general category of heathenistic worthless people. 

And in other news Happy Valentine’s Day.

I hope you feel loved no matter what you believe and don’t let others bring you down. It doesn’t matter if you are loved by many or just by yourself. Just love and be loved.

Additional Commentary:

I had an awesome day yesterday. I got a lot of stuff done at work and then I got a lot of stuff that has been nagging at me done at home. I felt great. Then I watched a youtube video and it all went to hell.

 

How is it that the actions of one (or a few) set you off and turn you into Mayor of Snarkville?

 

It was a video that was recommended (which I watch only a few of the recommended) that I had put off until I received something in the mail (it is a review video and I didn’t want to be spoiled). Two seemingly little things just hit the right button and put me into a tailspin and I have been there pretty much ever since.

 

I hate when people categorize and generalize everyone that isn’t subscribed to their belief system into one group. “Single people hate Valentine’s Day”. So not true. I am single and, while it isn’t my most favorite holiday, I don’t hate it. I don’t feel sad when I don’t get a bouquet of flowers or a load of chocolate. I don’t sit in my room and listen to Taylor Swift man hate songs and cry. There are no tears on my pillow. I don’t feel less special because there is not a man in my life. I feel love every single day and it comes from a variety of people in my life. So, please do not lump me into a category with others because of your beliefs.

 

Sigh

 

I am in a funk of sorts in general to begin with, but yesterday seemed like a turning point and I was on the right track. I made bold decisions and I stuck to my guns and now I am right back in that place.

 

I was so happy to be pulling myself out of this hole and now I feel like the bottom fell out and I am six feet in again.

 

It’s a combination of things; relationships, habits, health, doldrums. It happens from time to time. I thought I was doing good, but in hindsight I was and am not. I am hoping that things change in the next month. I am giving myself a little time to climb up out of that hole and fix the things that need fixing and learn to let go of the things that can’t be fixed or shouldn’t be fixed.

 

A month is doable. The middle of March. The Ides of March. I didn’t really plan on starting yesterday anyways, I planned on starting today, I just made the decision yesterday and rode the wave.

 

Today has been long, but productive. I would love nothing more right now than a lovely V-Day catnap. A half an hour, that is all it would take to rejuvenate me and get me going in the right direction. Finish up the day strong and in charge. Tackle a few projects tonight and be in the best position possible for the long weekend.

 

I don’t really need a long weekend, but I am thankful for it. I love having that extra day to do whatever I want to with. February tends to be a rushed and busy month for me. It is weird because it is only 2-3 days shorter, but it packs a lot into it. I have felt like I have been doing the same thing for two weeks straight now, when usually I get a break to work on other projects. Plus I am already starting to think about March ap that is not processed until April. Just some little stressors.

 

And that is what is on my mind at the moment.