Day Off

What an interesting day off yesterday.  So the Walmart guy called me back and we decided to meet up.  We walked around the park and then went for a drink at a nearby Mexican restaurant.  When we parted ways he gave me a sweet good-bye kiss.  We texted back and forth for most of the evening.

Even though I am all resolved to be the source of my own self-esteem, it’s still nice to get attention, especially considering the last two weeks.

Later last night Scott called.  (no fun name…)  We actually had a really good conversation.  The first thing he did was apologize for the way he’d been talking to me.  Apparently he spoke to a friend of his who validated my responses and we was able to see things from my point of view.  Scott explained that his last girlfriend was super controlling and when I would say anything that he thought was controlling he freaked out.  I, in turn, explained how he made me feel and why I reacted the way I did.  Also, I’m not his ex and he needs to give me the benefit of the doubt when he’s aware of his knee jerk reaction.    I told him that he couldn’t just disappear when he was upset.  It’s not fair to me.  I think that we both said things that weren’t good and we both took responsibility for what we said/did.  We both said we wanted to continue seeing each other, but we were going to take things one day at a time.  I think that as long as we talk about things a lot of misunderstandings can be avoided. 

As for me…I will not be focusing just on him.  I will continue to talk with WalMart, and not close myself off to other options.  That’s not to say I’m going to go all crazy (not sure that’s an option anyhow), just not be so consumed by one person. 

Wish me luck!