Heinz

Playing a bit of catch-up here, and I’m not sure exactly when I’ll have the free time and headspace to do it other than now. Here goes.

If you know me at all, you know I happen to be an alcoholic. I also happen to be a mother, sister, daughter, friend, control freak and aspiring Buddhist. None of those things encompass my whole being, they are merely pieces of me. None rule my life completely, unless that’s my focus at the time.

Just to clear up any questions, yes, I relapsed. I also immediately sprung into action and put myself into treatment. I’ve been sober since 9/2/17, in treatment to some degree or another ever since, and although the control freak in me wants to see that wrapped into a tidy little package, the Buddhist in me is reminding me that I’m only in control of what’s mine. Be patient, work on self, connect with others who can guide or help me in a positive manner, let go and let God on the rest.

I’ve changed almost everything about my life in the past 5 months. It’s a totally new approach, a new recovery path/method, and I’ve been blessed to be around some of the best people I’ve ever met. I’m in a good space – good enough, anyway – it’s not all roses and ohm. But it’s also not toxic to my mental and emotional (and don’t forget physical) well-being.

I dont really post at all on facebook, and I suck at paper journaling, so it’s like karma just swung around to my direction that this site opened back up. I have a space again that I’m comfortable in and with, and that means SO much to my recovery.

Looking forward to really reintroducing myself to all my cohorts here, and finding out how you’ve really been doing. Now I’m going to throw myself back into cooking (amazing therapy for me!) and see who I can catch up with.

Much love!!