Take me down to the little white church.

I think around 25 is when girls start to think about their futures as mothers, wives, and having familiies. I know thats when it started for me. And its only gotton worse with each passing year. I will be 28 this year and haven’t had a serious, committed relationship in almost 5 years. I was 23 when I had my daughter and really thought with everything inside me that was the relationship that was going to last me the rest of my life. In ways, I’m glad its not and I’ve gotton to be "young" and experience life a little bit. In the last few months, my best friend has lost her son… who was 7 years old and its really made me appreciate my daughter even more. Its made me appreciate being a mother and everything that comes with it, and has really really made the itch to get married even worse.
Josh and I dated for a little over 3 months. And it was really great. I felt myself starting to fall for him just before it ended. It was sort of a mutal thing, because we were both so busy that we neglected eachother just a little bit. We are still friends and run into eachother often. Good times for those who know what its like to run into an ex at the bar. GOOD TIMES:) He does look out for me though… some JERK was all up in my face one night and Josh saw that I was upset and came to my rescue. I appreciate him for that. Still looks out for me… 🙂 He invited me to a party at his house next weekend, and ill probably go… but it just makes me want to be with him even more. I’ve realized there are parts of him that I want in a husband, but still parts of Sam that I miss too. Life is soo hard.
But you keep going. Take on the new day. Do dishes and laundry and keep a household going. Gather all your strength and "lather, rinse, repeat!" Just how life is.
I realize I haven’t written in here in a long time, and I’ve never really had "followers", but I feel like I write for me, when I’ve bottled up soo much for too long. So here I am.
I found this on the front page of our newspaper this morning and it made my "ITCH" even worse. Life is just toooo short!! My thoughts and prayers are with this family and their young children!

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