Attitude is everything!

This life is all we get. Do you ever stop and think about that? One chance to spend year 27 of your life with as many happy memories as possible. Fill it up with smiles and laughs and pictures and vacations and road trips and actually DO the things you want to do. And hoping to break that with year 28…29 and so on. And who knows, year 27 may be the end of your life. No one really knows.  We all have so many dreams we get wrapped up in, so many things we want to accomplish by next week, next month or next year…we forget about today. And the possiblities that today holds. We all forget to be thankful for TODAY.

Life sucks sometimes. Life is hard. Life will beat you up and make you angry. It will rob you of as many tears as it can, like they are gold. It will show you the highest of highs and the lowest of lows. It will turn you into the worst possible version of yourself at the worst moment imaginable and also the most beautiful version. It will make you into someone that you KNOW your not and it will make you into someone you knew you were all along. Attitude is EVERYTHING! The one and only thing you can control every single day of your life, is your attitude. And I find myself often forgetting that. My attitude has been soo poor the past few months. And I know I certaintly haven’t been someone ANYONE has wanted to be with. I can understand why Sam wanted to give up. Maybe it wasn’t me and he really does need to work on himself, but I am guilty of that as well. There may never be a future for us… the Lord only knows that… but it doesn’t mean I need to give up on the possibility of anything great. He is a good person with a huge heart. I wish so bad that I could be certain of a future with him, or see what the cards are that are in store for me… but thats all part of this crazy life. These are all things I come to a realization in after my worst possible times… 
 
I can truly say that the one time in the past few years, where I’ve been genuinley happy… has been when I could jump on the treadmill and run hard for 3 miles without a problem. I miss that part of myself soo much. So I  guess I really need to find my way back there. My friend asked me tonight if I wanted to run the 5K in march with her that she ran last year… and I said absolutely if I could start training again. So thats where I need to start. Either I’ll find a decent priced treadmill or hope that my other friend can hook me up with an affordable gym membership. He has connections…:)

This life is my life. It should be filled with decisions that make ME happy. I shouldn’t take days for granted. Just one of them, could be my last… right??