Great Expectations

Expectations are a tricky thing.

Expectations as a self-righteous sense of entitlement are wrong.  Expectations set you up for disappointment.  This, I know. 

However, we all have expectations…certain things we want; certain things we hope for; certain things we wish to live up to, or have others live up to.

I have always been made to feel guilty about my expectations.  "You can’t have expectations, you’re just going to be disappointed".  "Expect nothing, and appreciate everything".  "Expect nothing and you’ll never be disappointed."

I call bullshit.

There’s a certain degree to which people EXPECT to be treated. 

There’s a certain degree to which I expect to be treated.  I give of myself and I shower people with love and thoughtfulness, and I expect to be treated the same way in return.  I realize you’re not supposed to expect things in return of your own actions…but I do.  And I don’t think there’s anything wrong with that.

But it never ends up that way.

I expect to be cared for to the degree i care for you.

I expect to be courted and pursued and made to feel like I’m the only person in this world you see.

I expect to be a priority.

I expect to be important to you.

Expectations are a part of pride.  They are a part of self-esteem, and knowing what you’re worth.  A person with no expectations may be open to anything, but can that person truly attain all that they’re worth if they’re not looking on that echelon?

No expectations, no disappointment.

I’d rather be disappointed all the time than never attain the things, the life, the love that I’m worth.

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October 24, 2010

I found you! I couldn’t before. At least I’m assuming it’s you…with the lol catz avatar.

October 24, 2010

Found ya!

like I learned in elementary sunday school, ‘treat others as you wish to be treated.’

Hello, dear. This is new.

October 25, 2010

Found you! You’re right, certain expectations are necessary for our well being.

M.I.A. I’m not trying ot be mysterious, doll. I’m going to do a tell all, just not quite there. Besides, I thought you’d gotten bored with me. If I ever disappear and you miss me too bad, my email is under_current@yahoo.com.

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October 25, 2010

“Expectations are a part of pride. They are a part of self-esteem, and knowing what you’re worth.” Couldn’t have put it better, myself.

ra
November 12, 2010

dude, this totally resonates with me. we’ve had this talk before. i expect exactly what i’m willing to give. no less. of course i don’t always get it. but…still, i expect it. and one day we will both get it back. i reckon it’s not going to be in the form we thought it might come in. but it’ll end up being better.