There has been a hate crime in Fort McMurray.

How did I allow myself to live in such a bigoted town? On Saturday at Fort McMurray’s first Gay Pride rally, two gay pride flags were burned. I’m sorry, I thought this was still Canada, and in Canada people are more accepting. So I thought, so i really wanted to believe.

I don;t understand whats happenning. I used to love Canada, because people were nicer in general. But Fort Mac is like this black hole of bigotry and entitlement and sometimes I wish I could just blink and see this four years dissipate. I can’t wait to get out of here.

I hate it here. Each day, I hate it here more. But maybe it’s not the city as a whole. Maybe no one is cheering about the flag burning, but as a racism victim, I knew to keep my mouth shut. Evil people do hurtful things to try and get their intended victims to retaliate, because if they do, they look bad and thats what they want. People are AWFUL. What kinds of parents do these people have? If it doesnt hurt you, and I mean physically than leave people alone. 

But OD can be a community like that. I had one diarist who was always interested in bothering me. She would always tell me that my voice wasn’t welcome here. She bullied me into keeping my voice quiet in the one place where my voice should be able to be heard, and I stopped writing here, for a long time. 

A sense of community doesn’t just come from the place where you live, but the people you surround yourself with, and people who surround you. Why would you bully someone because of something they can’t change? Just because you don’t agree with it. People are people first, and labels second. Why are we so busy labelling people anyways? 

I can’t remember a time where I thought being gay was wrong. I remember a time where I didn’t quite understand, but being different, and singled out myself I think taught me acceptance young. No one wants to feel like they don;t belong, so why do people who have never felt that way, go out of their way to alienate people, to make people feel dirty, to make people feel like they are worthless. when in fact it is these people themselves who probably have more good and love to spread in this world than bullies. 

I’m not going to blame religion. Religion is fine, fanatics are stupid enough to believe that there is actually a human divide. When, one thing I know for sure is that all humans beings are created equal, and thus deserve an equal chance at life and happiness. If you fuck it up for ouself fine, but stop trying to fuck up everyone else because you’re not happy about something or you are insecure.

Anyhow said diarist seems to have lost her hard on for me, and has since disappeared, but hate is still all around us. I hoped that by the time I was old enough to have kids the world would have been a better place, but it just doesn’t feel that way.

I’m going home September 19th, I haven’t booked my return flight, but I’m thinking maybe October 1st. Sam’s working until the 29th, it’ll give him a chance to chill and have some time off to himself, before i come home and invade all of his free time. 

NOthing makes you more hopeful about life than the birth of a baby, and she’s coming any day now really… just waiting for that phone call!