I’ve got a fever…

So although I’ve been in bed since 11:30, and it is now 4:20, I can’t seem to sleep.

Just as well I guess.

I was super sick today so I came to bed early, and what happens when I get to thinking? 

Nothing good I guess.

I seem to have stumbled into a rather serious bout of… Baby fever.

Apparently?

Its not really in my character, and when Sam and I met I was dead set against having children.

Every now and then I get these little spells of baby fever, when you know, there are babies around, but that only lasts 45 minutes.

Well, I started out googling cute things, like baby blankets and nurseries and such (thanks for that by the way, pinterest!), that’s when I realized I don’t know anything about babies! Except for how they’re made, of course 😉

Sam and I texted back and forth about how, sooner would actually be better for us to have said baby, and that’s when I decided to try and sleep. But I couldn’t so back to iPad I went, learning all kinds of horrific things about what could happen, starting from in utero, until my babies are longer babies. Having children is very terrifying to me, and even after all said terrifying realities, I don’t know why I’m not deterred to the idea :S

I guess I’m getting soft in my late twenties.

Well, I’m going to smoke the rest of my joint (while I still can…) and try to get some sleep.