Day 16 – I’m Terrified

 Mood: Teetering on the Edge of depression
Music: Weakness – Everlast

My neck and inner elbows swell up whenever they feel like it, and it’s painful and uncomfortable. Oh, and my face joins in whenever this happens.

I’m miserable. I’m terrified. I’m scared to do anything, or eat anything. Sleeping is nice until I wake up, and I have to deal with the heelish aftermath of sleeping.

It seems the problem is my adrenal gland. It can’t bring down inflammation on its own, and other anti-inflammitories don’t work. So I have to deal with the pain, and the awful discomfort that joins in. 

I had a decent day, until I took a nap. 

I woke up, showered and went by my naturopath to pick up some chinese herbs that she had left out front for me. I went to the natural food store and bought a sleep aid (not working btw). Then I came home, took my herbs and did a guided meditation.

No swelling, no itching. I was really tired (from all of the sleep I’m not getting) so I took a nap. I was out for about 1/2 an hour and then, BAM my neck got all itchy (like it is now… oh no) and then swelled and stung for about an hour, before it came back down.

Ok, this is going to be bad. I;m off.