startover

she’s right.

i haven’t been writing, and that’s what’s wrong. i know what else can make me happy, but words are how i live. i haven’t been writing like i need to for months now, and a discontent, an ache, is settling in my bones. i haven’t known who i was since last summer, and now that i’m ready to understand, it feels like i’ve forgotten how to ask.

i don’t remember how i began, but this is no excuse.

i am a writer. so i’ll write.

And I’ll be here to read.

Hilary

June 18, 2004

I suppose I ought to take my own advice, too, but I just can’t bring myself to do it. The inner editor is having her way and right now she’s just too strong.

Blue Dave

it makes me really happy to hear you say that

apocalyptic

love.

best of luck.

reinvention can do wonders (Do you remember the entry about reinventing yourself for under 50 dollars? I printed it out and I hang it on my wall whereever i go)

me too. i really need to motivate myself to do it again. regularly. i’m scared i’ll forget how. i’m scared generally, about what’ll come out. xx