You Know, I Don’t Think I Was Truly Pissed Off…

…until now.

Jill, you haven’t seen me scary yet. See my face, as I am now, and THAT will scare you. Those past entries were written out of a desperation/depression. Now, I’m angry . . .

Now, in regards to Jason . . .

First off, I never should have written about any of this in my diary, therefore, there shouldn’t BE any other perspectives coming into this. Second, oh, I see. You can’t “juggle” college, a job, and your sister, but you CAN juggle college, a job, keeping your family “happy,” and sneaking off to see me on the sly??? Third, “if you can’t comprehend that by now, it’s not worth explaining any further.” What the HELL is that supposed to mean??? Oh, I see, you think that you’ve actually EXPLAINED things to me before. Well, GUESS AGAIN!!

You know what? Right now I’m far too pissed off to say anything else, because not only is this not the place, I’m not putting my thoughts down for a public setting. Not this time. Jason, you want to get to the damned point? Then come to my house on Monday. You’ll find your answer then.

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Glad you’re not mad. Tell Mike I never received his e-mail, though I have been watching for one since he said he’d send one. Good luck with this whole thing with Jason… [Jill*Rose]
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wow. i know how you feel. i love my best friend more than anything or anyone in my life. it would literally kill me to lose him. I hope Jason will realize that a friendship like yours is not something that comes along so often and make the right decision. Family can be incredibly important in life, and some people do value them more than friends… [a flawless defect]
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but some day everyone is going to have to leave their families. They will have to leave many of their friends as well. But forming trusting, loving relationships is something that is important in life. When they are far away from their home, who are they going to turn to? But then again, dependency is always an option. Let’s just hope that Jason and his family will realize that though they are… [a flawless defect]
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probably the most important people in his life right now, they cannot be the only ones. It is unhealthy not to have any other relationships. What will happen if he falls in love with someone who his family doesnt approve of? Maybe he is in a very unstable position right now with college and all, but being someone’s friend doesn’t have to involve hours upon hours each and every day. [a flawless defect]
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I think if he really wants to be your friend, his attitude will be something more than an indifferent “it’s up to you.” Maybe it still is? I don’t think you will ever know through notes on the internet. Try to talk to him in person. He should be able to give you just a little of his time. After all, it’s not as though you’re asking to take him away from his family. You just want to be his friend. [a flawless defect]
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*end rant* good luck, and feel better [a flawless defect]
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yeah, we noted back and forth a couple times i believe. [a flawless defect]
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There must be something… I hope that he has a viable explaination… [Angel Knight]