Under My Wing

I’m realizing more and more, that the people I care about, I want to protect. I want to just envelope them in my arms, and protect them from all the things that could hurt them. Bring their pain into myself, because I’ve realized that, as much as something tries to bring me down, I’m strong enough not to. I’m a good enough swimmer in stormy seas that I won’t be brought down myself. And I hate that I honestly can’t do that for the ones I care about. Hell, Andy, Dolly, even Joey, I can’t just drive over and show up at their house to give them a hug, or a listening ear, or anything, and I can’t stand it! Andy and Mike are so similar, and whereas Mike was right there in the next town, ten minutes away, fifteen to twenty biking, Andy’s not. He’s a heck of a lot farther away, and I don’t know if I can do the same thing for him long distance that I did for Mike in the next town over. I know he can pull through this. I know he can become stronger for having gone through it. But… I worry about what he’ll be like in the interrim. God, even Dec. 13th…

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You are wonderful… thank you for all your notes… I’m writing that letter, and by wednesday the latest it’ll be in the mail, with a pic of me I haven’t decided if I’ll throw in some other pics too. I’m still alive and I’m vieing to be stronger but there’s so much I just… don’t have a grip on yet. What I would give to feel the sunlight on my face What I would give to be lost in your embrace [Angel Knight]
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Don’t worry about me Kate. I knowthat you are with me, and that in it’s self is securtity. If i am in trouble, all I have to do is think of you, and I will prevail. [OrcDragon65]
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I understand what it’s like to care about the people you love so much. Good luck in helping out others, but don’t forget to be good to yourself too! [agony~n~ecstasy]
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If I can’t be strong for myself, even if you were here, there isn’t a lick you could do for me. But, thank you, Oh Great and Wise Mother Hen. Your love and concern mean a great deal, regardless. I wish the same things, honestly. I hated not being there for you through the Jason thing and the Mike thing and the thing thing…. [HyacatDuncan]
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Um…does Angel Knight have a CRUSH on you? I mean, that “Lost in your embrace thing” is really kinda freaky…. *waggles eyebrows* Hee. Can you tell I feel flirty tonight? [HyacatDuncan]
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If you took that stick out your ass, you’d realize that Mr. Slappy’s diary is 100% fictional, and a waste of time. But it’s damn entertaining! [Pilgrim]
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If I recall correctly (and I can access Slappy’s diary notes to confirm) Anal Knight came to Slappy first, and started throwing the punches. And yes, it is entertaining. Much like deep frying embryos and selling them as chicken gizards at the gas station deli [Pilgrim]
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hehehehe actually I did laugh at that. Stumpy! Hee! I’m gonna tell him that too. He’ll laugh. [Pilgrim]
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You’re prolly very cool and decent and all. But I’m afraid I can’t lay off of A.K. See, “I am a firm believer in once you start something, finish it.” So you and I finished, pretty cool I think. But he started something with Slappy, and sent in his minions to finish it. Therefore, I took the opportunity for some fun. So, til he’s done being an ass, I’m gonna continue being an ass. [Pilgrim]
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I’ll have to admit that you are right about that. But as you said you and Circle of Swimmers took up the fight of your own volition. *shrugs* [Pilgrim]
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I’m soooooo sorry for getting you involved in this… I’ll leave any notes in private so that they leave you alone. *anger builds* If I could just get my hands on him! Why is he doing this?! BUZZ OFF! Sorry… sorry. Look, I don’t want you getting hurt. Might I add, thank you for sticking up for me, you’re awesome. [Angel Knight]
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I wish I knew what to tell you…but I know you can take care of yourself. I just wanted to leave you a note basically because I have been too busy to do much of anything with this diary besides read people’s entries! But I have been reading, and keeping up with your life, even if I haven’t been noting. I hope everything is going okay in your life! [SolarEclipse]