Two Year Open Diary Anniversary!!

I’ve now been writing on this site for two years. Wow. I have over six hundred entries, (would be over seven hundred if the stupid hacker thing hadn’t happened…) I’ve made some really good friends here, (Jess, Andy, Julie, Angela) and gotten closer to older friends, (Melanie, Dolly,) and I haven’t regretted a moment of it. I love this website, despite it’s ocassional problems.

May 10th seems to hold significance for me year after year. Dates repeat in my life in an odd cycle. Last year, tonight was the night I slapped Jason after the entire thing happened concerning Mike, myself, and him. But amazingly, this entry isn’t going to turn into one about Jason. I went on my whole self-pity streak, had people talking to me about it, and you know what? I feel a lot better. I’m not gonna say I’m at the point where I’ve thoroughly moved on, but I think I’m getting there.

Anyway, it’s a little after four now and as soon as I finish up a couple of things, I’m gonna head out to Brookdale to talk to a counselor about settin up my curriculum. Then, once I know what classes I have to take and if I’ll have to transfer eventually to complete a four yer degree, I’ll decide on what class/classes I’m gonna take this coming semester. Then I get to come home and talk it over with my parents. I’m gonna offer to pay half for my education. ie — half for books and the class/classes I take in a semester. Basically, one or the other of us can shell out the entire amount and once that’s done, the one who didn’t pay will reimburse the one who did.

If I only have to get a two year degree, I figure I can complete that by the time I’m twenty six, at latest. That’s only about three and a half years, since I’m almost twenty three. I know, it seems like a long time, but I don’t want to give up the job at Domino’s and I don’t want to limit myself to certain days. At least, not anymore than I already have, considering Keansburg. Plus, I’m taking the classes I don’t like first and I know that’s going to include some kind of math and possibly statistics. I’ve heard horror stories about statistics, but if it can help me achieve this recent dream, I’ll do it. Yet I want to be able to concentrate on classes like that one at a time. So that’s what I’m gonna do. Once I get the ones I know I won’t like out of the way, I’ll take two or three at a time and really get the ball rolling to complete this venture.

Hopefully, I can complete this with a two year degree and then start my own practice. If not, hopefully I’ll be twenty six when I complete my two year degree and then I canpace myself a bit on completeing a four year degree and finish that by the time I’m twenty nine. Then when I’m thrity, I can hopefully have my own house and start my practice. I’m taking a lesson from another therapist I heard about. She does her sessions in her own home. So that’s what I think I’ll do. I’ll find myself a home off of a major highway, set up shop, and have one room of the downstairs of my home as a study area. It’ll have my credentials hung up and have bookshelves and maybe some fish. And I’ll have nice, relaxing chairs in it. It’ll look like an office, and more or less be my office, but it’ll also be part of my home and it’ll feel like that, too.

Okay, enough plotting for the future. Time to start putting things into action!

Happy Two Year Open Diary Anniversary To Me!!

love is blonde

May 10, 2005

HAPPY TWO YEARS!! wooohoo

Quiet Observer

Stats was cake. Easiese damn math class I’ve ever taken, of course my prof was a complete air head so that’s not saying much… If you get a B.A. That should be all you need, B.S. requires more. I don’t know how associates work.

oh yeah, and HAPPY 2-YEARS!! :0)

ChristenNTomato

ryn: I’m going to reply to the note before I read the entry so I don’t foget! So expect two notes from me! Anyway, I’ll start with Sylvia Brown. Catholics believe that fortune telling is wrong. Then as for my being not married by Catholic standards. To be married in to the Catholic church you have to have a wedding in which you are married through God, (ie in the church) other Christian

weddings are accepted. As long as the Catholic church considers that religion Christian. And as for BC, the church also does not believe in that. Though this one I have never believed in, even before I knew the churches belief. If BC is being used for medical reasons, such as removing a cist, regulating a period, any reason not controling birth it is OK, but to control birth is to do whatever

you want and not have consequenses…to play God, the entire idea just creaps me out. Now, I’m off to read your entry! ~Christen~

There’s nothing wrong with taking it slow through college (after all, I’m on the 7 year program or something), and that’s cool that you want to half it…though, I always recomend saving the money…but if that makes you feel better, more power to you! ~Christen~

ryn: But the problem with that is looking at it like you have the right to do something just for pleasure whenever you want instead of truly accepting the consequenses of our own actions. As for the no divorce thing, people should never enter into marriage if they think they might split up…why make promises you break? ~Christen~

Where are you from? ~Christen~

ryn: Well, you hit another of my beliefs…if it is LOVE then you won’t fall out of it…love evolves and changes, it never ends. And then the church has no problem with you going your seperate ways, but you were made ONE by God himself and you cannot break that bond by moving onto somebody else. Marriage is impossible twice, God cannot make you one with two. ~Christen~

ryn: I just can’t accept birth control. Abstain, if you cannot control yourself, you aren’t ready for sex. ~Christen~

ryn: I agree with you, that sex is a healthy expression of love…completly. I do engage in intercourse, and at the moment, don’t want to have another baby. But I choose to do it responsibly when I know I have the least chance of getting pregnant, and I would not have sex if I wasn’t willing to accept what follows. ~Christen~

ryn: Actually I just answered the husband and wife scenerio…they can abstain too…it is called Natural Family Planning, it is the Catholic form of BC. ~Christen~

ryn: I believe God can do ANYTHING He wants to do…so I see your point, but as a Catholic I also believe God gives us free will. So if God believes that somebody NEEDS a baby he’ll break the barriers, but he gives us the possibility to decide not to sometimes. (Well, abortion…all the time) ~Christen~

hey what you’re planning to do sounds like a wonderful idea. That’s what kind of therapist I’m going to for my ADHD but he’s in an actual neighborhood. It was a surprise for me at first but he’s really good and I trust him. He’s not like the others I went to in the past.

Congrats on being on diary for so long. I miss your emails so email me when you can and note me as well. I hope you are doing well. This Sept at the end of Sept I will have been using diary for 3 years.