To Melanie And Ken
Great. Now I’m getting notes from Ken saying it’s none of my business whether he’s good enough or not, and all that stuff. You know what? I regret writing that first entry about my worries for one very simple reason. No one seems to be able to handle what I said. They jump to conclusions about what I meant, impications they think I made, and get mad at me for following the advice that Melanie gave me in the first palce. To just write about what I feel. Well, you know what? Plain and simple, here it is. The black and white of how I feel, and this is the last I’ll write on it in here, because I’m sick of people seeing grays I never painted in.
No, I don’t like that he smokes. Yes, I think smoking is a dusgusting and suicidal way of life, because in a literal fashion, you are making the conscious decision to slowly kill yourself, give yourself a possibly fatal disease, etc. Yes, I find it appalling that he drinks, but I find it appalling when anyone drinks. I don’t like alcohol in any fashion because I have seen too many negative effects of it.
Do I think he’s a bad person for this? No. I don’t know him. I only know that I don’t like what I’ve heard, and therefore voiced a worry that I hoped Melanie was being careful. THAT WAS ALL!!!!! I wrote that entry because I cared, all right? Not because I was being some prejudiced idiot who thinks everyone who smokes or drinks is a maniacal nutcase waiting to go off like a bomb! I like the BEATLES, remember? If anyone abused illegal substances, and drank/smoked to the limit, it was them. But they regretted it. And George died of smoking-related cancer. Excuse me for worrying about, and not wanting this to happen, to the one that Melanie loves. By all means, he wants to keep smoking till he winds up with cancer, and Melanie watches him go through treatments, and then is almost destroyed by him dying, fine. It isn’t my problem. I guess I SHOUDN’T try to help them avoid THAT. ::Yeah, dripping sarcasm, there.::
I sound a lot angrier than I actually am. No one should go through what I said in the sentence above. But people do. Art did. He lost Karen, and I’ve seen him since. Karen was his whole world. He doesn’t have a direction anymore. He’s lost the one person who he loved more than anything, and it has almost destroyed him. And Karen, despite the fact that she smoked, was a wonderful person. I miss her a lot, even though I didn’t know her that well.
All right. I’m done talking on this. I hope you two read this, but if you’ve got something to say about it, IM me.
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Again, this is Ken. I never once criticized you for speaking your mind. All I did was respond to an entry you wrote about me…a person you have NEVER met. I believe that people have the right to speak their minds with no worries of repercussion. However, I also believe that people have the right to defend themselves when being verbally dragged through the "proverbial" mud. We have never met, and-
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yet, for some reason you feel the need to attack my lifestyle. Why is this? Yes, I admit, I did at one point use drugs. However, I quit…a fact that i’m proud of. I do smoke, and I enjoy doing it. I know smoking causes cancer, but i’ve already had, and beat the disease. I also drink. Contrary to popular belief, not all people who drink are uncontrolable alcoholics. When I do drink, I drink in-
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moderation. Now, I suppose you know me well enough to judge me…not yet. I guess I will also let you know that I am in fact a Satanist. No, before you jump to conclusions, I do not worship the devil. I don’t even believe in the devil. I also don’t believe in a god. Now, does that make me a bad person? I have never killed, mamed, or raped. Does that make me a good person? You don’t know…do you?-
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Have I made you think? Have you maybe realized that you shouldn’t judge people based on a few "bad" habits? I don’t mean to sound like an inconsiderate ass, but if that is how you choose to perceive me, then so be it. I really could not care less. Mel gave you some good advice. If you choose to write, then do it. Don’t worry about what people think. However, you should meet the people you judge.