This Time, It’s Sunny Out

Live Like You Were Dyin’
By: Tim McGraw

He said I was in my early forties
with a lot of life before me
when a moment came that stopped me on a dime
and I spent most of the next days
looking at the x-rays
Talking bout the options
and talking bout sweet time
I asked him when it sank in
that this might really be the real end
how’s it hit you when you get that kinda news
man what’d you do

and he said
I went sky diving
I went Rocky Mountain climbing
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull named fumanchu
and I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter
and I gave forgiveness I’d been denying
and he said someday I hope you get the chance
to live like you were dying.

He said I was finally the husband
that most the time I wasn’t
and I became a friend a friend would like to have
and all the sudden going fishin’
wasn’t such an imposition
and I went three times that year I lost my dad
well I finally read the good book
and I took a good long hard look
at what I’d do if I could do it all again

and then
I went sky diving
I went Rocky Mountain climbing
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull named fumanchu
and I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter
and I gave forgiveness I’d been denying
and he said someday I hope you get the chance
to live like you were dying.

Like tomorrow was a gift and you got eternity to think about
what’d you do with it
what did you do with it
what did I do with it
what would I do with it?

Sky diving
I went Rocky Mountain climbing
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull named fumanchu
and then I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter
and I watched an eagle as it was flying
and he said someday I hope you get the chance
to live like you were dying.
To live like you were dying
To live like you were dying
To live like you were dying
To live like you were dying

And of course, I know Jason won’t be stopping by.

Last year, the twenty-sixth was a Monday.  And last year, it was raining when Jason came to my house around eleven.  The whole story is in and around the entries entitled "400th Entry — And Again With The Rain!"

It kills me that I can’t talk to him.  But at least I have the memories.  I worry about him and think about him every day.

I can’t help thinking how much everything has changed in just a year.  I worked at Dots a year ago, though it was something that was swiftly waning.  I was applying to that job at the car dealership in the hopes of getting something full time so I could get another car.  My hair was about the same length as it is now.  I’m working on that.  I want it long again.  I at least want to be able to tie it back, or braid it.

I feel more complete than I have in a long time.  I’ve lost some, but gained others, and really gotten a sense of who my friends are.  I know to trust my instincts, I know intuition is probably the best quality I have.

I know that sometimes life is gonna throw me for a loop, but I know I can handle whatever happens to me.  I have survived a Hell of a lot and I can do it again.  I may not be the richest person in the world, or the prettiest, or the best at whatever, but I’ll be okay.

Maybe I can’t put into practice everything that this song teaches, but I think I say what needs to be said when it needs to be.